I had originally thought my life was busy and crazy but I had no idea it could get worse.
Since my last post my husband and I split every day between visiting FIL whom we admitted to hospice and work. But there are so many other things that totally fill our time, some days I just want to have everything go away and just hide. One of those things is we had to make the difficult decision to euthanize our beloved cat 5 year old Trouble. Just 3 weeks prior to making that decision, Trouble was diagnosed with a bladder infection. Trouble recuperated fine after a round of antibiotics or so we thought. A week after he took the last antibiotic he became listless again. We fed him syringes of water and isolated him from the other cats. A mere 6 hours later we rushed him to the Emergency Vet who diagnosed him with bladder stones and in acute renal failure. Since he was so young, we decided to treat by having the vet put in a catheter and give him IV fluids. He didn't respond. His kidney failure was too much so we made the difficult decision to put him out of his pain. We picked up his ashes yesterday. His blood brother misses him but we all do.
On top of the above, we are dealing with the complications of trusting our software vendor who we thought was a friend. There is the Attorney General of 2 states and a legal firm and our lawyer trying to help us sort out a huge mess. I feel betrayed. What I thought was a 21 + year friendship based on ethics, honesty, and mutual respect has turned out to be a fake. I want to just shout out to everyone what is happening but I have too much respect for myself to stoop to his level.
I keep telling myself that God doesn't give us more than we can handle but right now I am having a hard time believing this and coping. I have been praying a lot. I know there is a lesson and a plan He has for the reasons I am going through all this. Just hard to be patient.
So my inspiritational Sunday message isn't so inspiritational.
Sorry
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